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Everything was pretty much normal compared to canon up until that encounter with Shigaraki at the mall. After our "conversation", I asked him to tell me what All for One was after, and instead of answering, Shigaraki had us warped to the man himself to tell me in person. AFO was more than happy to give me his grandiose speech about how he intended to obtain One for All for himself. Since the opportunity had presented itself, he chose to make me the U.A. spy for the League of Villains so that I could keep tabs on All Might and the school's movements. I refused, of course, but he didn't give me much of a choice when he implanted a secondary Quirk in me called Doppelganger, though I didn't realize that at the time.

AFO let me go with a vague statement about how he looked forward to hearing from me and I was warped back to the mall where Uraraka was looking for me. Afterward, I relayed what had happened to All Might, who nearly had a heart attack from hearing about my close call with AFO, but he seemed just as perplexed about my being released as I was. He decided that he would keep a close eye on me.

Doppelganger made itself known soon enough. It started out as minor headaches accompanied by uncomfortably intrusive thoughts, then gradually developed into dissociative episodes where I temporarily seemed to lose control of my own body. At a certain point I began blacking out completely and losing time, having no recollection of my activities until I came to again. It was then that I began to notice my classmates distancing themselves from me, claiming upset with things I didn't remember doing.

All Might as the one who first hypothesized that it was another Quirk tampering with my mind. Since it wasn't a Quirk associated with OFA, it was far more difficult for me to coexist with since my body wasn't suited to this Quirk factor. I started having dreams about meeting a distorted version of myself who called himself Dekiru. It was as if the Quirk had a mind of its own as it explained what it could do. As it turned out, once I made that connection with Doppelganger, I was able to start using it consciously, projecting "Dekiru" outside of myself as a featureless clone of sorts that could interact with its surroundings.

However, the more I used it, the harder it became to maintain control. At first I thought that training with it was helping, but it only made the blackouts and dissociation worse. Dekiru corrupted my thoughts and drudged up some of my darkest feelings of shame and spite to warp my view of the world around me. Although I fought against it, I couldn't deny the effect it was having on me.

During the fight against Shigaraki and the Paranormal Liberation Front, I was battling Dekiru at the same time that I was trying to parallel process the new Quirks that had surfaced from OFA. Up until then, I had attempted to visualize Doppelganger as something I could lock and unlock like I did with my other Quirks, but that method didn't work so well against something unnatural. After Shigaraki retreated and the dust from the war settled, I resolved to isolate myself from U.A., not only to avoid making the school a target, but also to keep Dekiru at a safe distance from those I cared about. Shigaraki didn't so much as attempt to repossess Doppelganger when he tried to take OFA, so I was still stuck with it for the time being.

Unfortunately, the isolation only made things worse. For some reason, I thought that I would be able to keep a grip on Dekiru if I didn't have to worry about protecting people around me, but without the support of my friends, it only made it that much easier for Dekiru to get a stranglehold over my mind. I began to remember things that happened during my blackouts, things that Dekiru chose to show me about the secret second life I had been living under everyone's noses, including my own.

I was the U.A. traitor. Even though I had returned to the mall that day under the impression that AFO had merely chosen to show mercy, Doppelganger had been working from the shadows all along, feeding information to the League of Villains without even my own conscious awareness of it. I had met with them, talked with them, broken bread with them, made friends with them. Or rather, Dekiru had. Dekiru's connection with the League was not dissimilar to my own connection with my classmates. Dekiru wanted to serve and protect them the very same way. It was jarring and disconcerting to have these feelings flood into me as if they were my own. I felt adoration for Dabi in spite of my disgust at all the lives he'd taken and the way he fought to tarnish his family's name. I felt kinship with Toga even though she had caused my friends so much harm. I loved dishing out gossip with Kurogiri and even missed him when he was captured. I admired the skills of Mr. Compress and I enjoyed the company of Twice and I sympathized with Spinner's conviction to carry on Stain's will.

All of Dekiru's feelings became one with my own, genuine and sincere, and I felt like I was being torn apart. I couldn't protect the people who threatened others that I also wanted to protect, but I couldn't deny the truth in Dekiru's feelings, either. I also couldn't deny the atrocities I had committed while under Dekiru's influence. I didn't deserve to call myself a hero. I may have stopped to help those in need while wandering the desolation that became of Musutafu, but people were right to compare me to a villain. They were right to be wary of my connection to AFO. Even I couldn't trust myself anymore.

When Class 1A came to confront me, I struggled to get away from them as much as Dekiru struggled to fight them off. It came down to me and Bakugo—or rather, Dekiru and Bakugo. He could see through Doppelganger without issue, though, and pinned me down to deliver the shock I needed to come back to my senses. Well, more like the blast I needed. Uraraka chastised him for going overboard, but truth be told, any less power behind it and Dekiru would have seized the opportunity to gain the upper hand. Part of my face was left severely burned afterward, but the words of apology Bakugo shared with me were all the salve I needed to heal.

Although Todoroki came to assist with my capture, he wouldn't look me in the eyes anymore. Uraraka told me that he was still processing the truth of my betrayal of U.A. and couldn't bring himself to forgive me just yet. Even so, despite that, he and the rest of my classmates had come to rescue me from myself. I was heartbroken by the depths of their friendship, so moved that I was finally able to lock Dekiru away, albeit just temporarily.

I was kept in confinement at U.A. once I was brought back, primarily to ease the minds of the civilian refugees who, while they did accept my presence there, were still uneasy about me. However, it was also so that the doctors present could run tests on me in order to devise a way to subdue Doppelganger for good. Their hypothetical solution was still in development when AFO finally attacked, but they had to let me join the fight regardless. It took blood and grit, but we were eventually able to get AFO on his last legs, aided by Shigaraki's will trying to overpower AFO's.

However, it was in that moment that Dekiru awakened once more, breaking out of the imagined prison I had put him in within my mind. He allowed AFO to get a hand on me and we confronted each other in the mind realm where One for All met All for One. Dekiru's corruption caused the vestiges of OFA to begin receding back into the Quirk's subconscious, making it that much more difficult to resist AFO. In the end, I was able to summon the combined power of OFA that resided within me to overpower AFO, at the cost of creating a sort of vacuum that destroyed both of our Quirks.

One for All and All for One were no more, and suddenly Shigaraki and I were just two badly wounded teenagers lying on a battlefield. The war was over. U.A. bested the remaining villains. The threat to Hero society was no more. And I was Quirkless again.

I spent a month comatose, an after-effect of being stripped of my Quirk in that manner. When I awoke, I was visited by All Might first. I couldn't remember how the battle had concluded, my memory of those final moments completely wiped clean, so he filled me in on the details, up to and including what happened to One for All. I was devastated to have lost the very thing that had allowed me to become a hero in the first place, but All Might reminded me that I'd had the spirit of a hero long before I received One for All. Still, I couldn't help lamenting the loss of my dream. Though, it was true that I had fulfilled everything I'd thought being a hero would mean, even if it ended up causing me to do villainous things.

I was stuck doing rehabilitation for six months before they would release me from the prison I was being kept at. Of course, that made sense. I had acted on behalf of the League of Villains, after all, even if at the time I was being influenced by a Quirk that wasn't my own. During that time, All Might continued to visit, and then so did my mom. They began seeing each other and I couldn't have been happier for them. All Might kept me informed about how my classmates were doing at U.A. now that classes had resumed and they were officially send year students. I was happy for them, too, even if I knew I wouldn't be joining them.

On the contrary, however, once my rehabilitation was complete, All Might delivered a letter from Principal Nezu containing the details of my return to U.A.'s hero course. Even though I was Quirkless, they still accepted me back into the school. Perhaps I would never become the hero I could have been with One for All, but there was still a place for me at U.A. nonetheless. I had some catching up to do first, though, of course.

When I did return to U.A. and stepped into the Heights Alliance dorm, all of my classmates—now Class 2A—eagerly welcomed me back, but the first to reach me was, surprisingly, Bakugo. He hugged me. A real, genuine hug, almost too tight to breathe. So much had changed and yet I found that I liked these changes much more than I thought I would. Particularly the part where Bakugo and I not only eased into a bona fide friendship, but finally addressed the romantic tension we had both secretly felt for one another. That part really made it all Plus Ultra.

I also learned over the course of my rehabilitation and return to U.A. that the League of Villains members Spinner, Toga, and Mr. Compress had all been apprehended. Dabi, on the other hand, sadly lost his life during his final confrontation with Endeavor and Todoroki. No matter what they tried to avoid it, Dabi refused to let go of his resentment and more or less forced them to put him down as a last resort. Todoroki was understandably distant because of this, but it also brought him closer to the rest of his family.

The three villains who were caught eventually agreed to their own rehabilitation, though Toga took a little more convincing, given her trauma. I wasn't allowed to visit them for obvious reasons, but I did write them letters. I felt obligated to since I could still remember the bonds I had formed with them as Dekiru. Surprisingly, they even wrote back. The only one I never heard from or about was Shigaraki, but All Might assured me that he was being taken care of at a classified location.

I have no idea when or how it managed to happen, but I distinctly remember Himiko and Uraraka doing each other’s nails at one point in time. They seemed to have gotten along really well ??? Bless their hearts.

Anyway when I graduated U.A., I did actually manage to become a Hero despite still being Quirkless. Rather than fighting out on the front lines, though, I worked from the shadows as a "ninja" of sorts. Since my body was still strong and trained, I could do things most civilians couldn't and I still ended up making a name for myself as the renowned Quirkless Hero: Deku. It wasn't as flashy as I had hoped when I was younger, but, to be completely honest, I'd had my fill of flashy heroics by that point. I appreciated the opportunity to continue helping society from the sidelines, especially since it allowed me to continue working closely with Bakugo.